Erratic blogs written by a bear chaser.

My name's Nick and I'm a 21 year old Canadian. I generally blog nonsense about my life. I'm attracted to chubby guys/bears but I'll rarely be posting about it, unless you count my boyfriend. Interested in hearing and talking to all kinds people on here maybe forming some sort of friendships.

iamagainthesecretnerd asked: my skype tells me it is your birthday. Happy Birthday Mister Nick. Hope all is well :)

Aww thank you <3 And yes, things have been good, thanks for asking.

All I ever really want to know is how other people are making it through life—where do they put their body, hour by hour, and how do they cope inside of it.
Miranda July (via casimirpulaskiday)

littlepineapple:

my goal in life is to cartwheel so quickly i generate gyroscopic forces and then turning my body parallel to the earth i fly in to space yelling “later haters”

So, about last night.

We really did break up, I’d like to believe I was single for like 12 hours. We’re back together right now, stitched up. But quite honestly it was rough, all sorts of rough. We were both so heartbroken by it, but it was kind of necessary. He came by the house last at night and we were both a big mess in our own kind of way, we couldn’t really take being apart.

It’s easy to say, “we’re over”. That’s all it takes to end something and as much as you want to put up a front, act like you don’t care, it’s impossible. So we both just hugged like it was our last hug ever, tears all over the place, but that wasn’t something we could deal with. We decided to stay together, being alone sucks, but it’s even worse when you’re losing someone you’re so connected with. You can’t spend 2 years with anyone and just expect to just leave them like that.

It wasn’t Mike’s fault either, the truth is I’ve been quite depressed for a while now. Like, enough that it’s really affecting his life, and as much as he says he loves me he can’t get rid of that feeling of loneliness that just ruins me. He tries and he tries but there’s nothing anyone can do really. I’ve not brought it up on my blog mostly because, well, it’s a bummer first of all, and there’s nothing that shouting it to the world will accomplish. I try to keep my blog somewhat happy or matter-of-fact I guess, I enjoy what I have here, and the people I share it with, I really do.

So, that’s the idea here. He decided he’d stay with me if I get my depression treated. It scares me because I really don’t think it will help, I feel like I’ll be this way forever and I’ll push him away all over again. But it’s worth a shot, as much as I don’t want to go through therapy or be on meds, it’s better than being alone I guess. Sorry about the depressing post, I just thought it would be better to paint a clearer picture. 

iamagainthesecretnerd asked: sup? :D

  • First impression: Oh hey look an Australian follower.
  • Truth is: Adorable, sweet, love bunnies and smurfs.
  • How old do you look: 17
  • Have you ever made me laugh: I know you have 1000 times, but forgive me if I can’t remember any right now. Probably when you’re all eeeeeee over bunnies.
  • Have you ever made me mad: Nope, never, impossible.
  • Best feature: Your taste in musics <3 And you sing well.
  • Have I ever had a crush on you: As much as a gay can crush on a woman.
  • You’re my: only aussie follower that speaks french.
  • Name in my phone. Jenniiii
  • Best thing about you. You’re just so nice to people, you seem to get along with all your followers. And bunnies.
  • What we would do if we met. Go to all the concerts in the world. Specifically Margot & The Nuclear So and So’s. The answer is always Margot.
  • Funniest thing I know about you. LES SCHTROUMPFS
  • Why I follow you. I love reading about your life, too good times and the bad, and you post plenty of cute stuff as well.
  • What’s the best thing about your blog.  Bunnies!
  • Should you post this too? You did!

nosferatwo asked: supbro?

  • First impression: I can’t recall who followed who first, but I looked at your blog and though it was well written and very personal, and like, no reblogs, so I followed.
  • Truth is: Every damn thing you say I agree with. Like everything. Stop sharing opinions with me, can’t deal. You’ve also said some really nice things to me, they meant a lot because of your dislike of many things, if that makes any sense.
  • How old do you look: Every picture you look different. From your icon I’d say like 17, but from your most recent picture I’d say 25. Why do you have that picture as your icon anyways?
  • Have you ever made me laugh: I think when you watched glee and posted your reactions and comments live.
  • Have you ever made me mad: No never. How is this possible.
  • Best feature: The fact that you’re gay but don’t act like it, and your beard’s quite nice.
  • Have I ever had a crush on you: He he oh my gosh
  • You’re my: most intelligent follower? I don’t know I can’t think of anything.
  • Name in my phone. Just realized I don’t know your name. No that can’t be right. But for some reason it aint coming to me.
  • Best thing about you. You’ve got good taste, and we share a lot of opinions on stuff. And you’re quite funny.
  • What we would do if we met. Complain about all the shit the rest of the world loves. Forever. I get the impression you’re easy to have intelligent conversations with too. That’d be nice.
  • Funniest thing I know about you. That you call queeny gays ‘faggoty ann’, that’s brilliant.
  • Why I follow you. Koala-tea posts and such.
  • What’s the best thing about your blog. The low amount of reblogs.